Write for Me

Before I begin I want to say that I do not consider myself to be a writer. Actually, as I typed out those words I felt convicted because I know that my Daddy God has called me to write, but boy do I feel unqualified, uneducated, and just too plain if the truth be told. I don’t have fancy penmanship or eloquent words that draw you in…captivating and impressing you…no I just have simple words that are raw and real. Simple words that come from the heart of a daughter who just wants to please her Daddy. A daughter that wants to be everything her Daddy knows she is. Today He spoke to me…”Write for Me. Will you do that? Will you write for Me and nobody else? Then your writings will accomplish all that they’re meant to accomplish.”

So as I sit here and try to write I don’t even know where to begin. So many times as I’m in fellowship with The Lord He will begin to speak to me and give me revelation or wisdom or some truth on a particular subject/situation and it will be so encouraging to me…like a right now Kingdom Key. I will journal it and as I’m journaling sometimes I will sense the urge to share it either to my blog or Instagram. I’m always excited to share because my heart’s desire is to encourage others and see them walking in their true identity…following God. So, just as soon as I start writing — BAM — I hit a BIG BRICK WALL and I can’t find the words…so I don’t write. Then I feel discouraged, unqualified, and maybe even like a failure to some degree. (All tactics of the enemy I know, but none the less it happens.)

This happened today. Twice actually. God began to give me insight and speak to me about a particular quote I scrolled past on Instagram. As I listened to Him, I felt an urge to share what He was giving me, so I went to Instagram and began to write…and BAM…you got it…BRICK WALL! So instead of getting discouraged, frustrated, feeling like a failure or whatever I just begin to talk to Daddy (God) about this. “Why does this happen? Why do I draw a blank when I begin to write? Why can’t I seem to find the words to write? Why doesn’t it make sense? I want to be obedient, but I can’t write. Etc.” and I heard Him say, “Because when you start to write, you start writing for others to read and not for Me. Write for Me.”

Ding! He hit the nail on the head! I think I knew this, but His pointing it out brought it to light and therefore requires something from me. It’s up to me now…Will I write for Him or continue to try to write for others?

When I journal it flows so freely because that is just for God and me. It’s not always personal struggles that I journal about; I will journal about revelation He gives me, a deeper understanding about a scripture He gives me, or maybe something He spoke to me or showed me during my day. The difference is…I’m not scrambling to find the right words to write…I’m writing as a daughter who wants to remember all the wonderful things Her Daddy shares with her. So, my hope is that as I write, I will write as if I’m writing for Him.

I’m not going to lie…I do find myself sometimes getting caught up in the mess of “performance”. Feeling like I need to post something or blog something because after all I have an Instagram specifically for “encouraging posts” and my blog for “journeying with me” so, therefore, there are certain expectations/responsibilities that come with these. Right? Not really…only the expectations and responsibilities I put upon myself…to perform.

I’m thankful that today Daddy was able to bring some insight to this issue. I can’t say that writing will be a breeze moving forward, but I can say that as I write I’m going to try to stay focused on writing for Him and trusting that He will accomplish all that He desires to accomplish through my written words. I still do not see myself as a writer, but I trust God who says that I am. I still don’t have eloquent words or fancy penmanship, but I do have a heart that wants to please my Daddy! I will write my plain and simple words and trust that I am being obedient to Him and His words, “Write for Me”, and hope that each person that reads them will in one way or another be encouraged, strengthened, or edified…or maybe all of the above.  Bless you all!

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